♥ Jack of Hearts ♥

Oi just a few short weeks until I'm back in a class room getting my learn on I'm not prepared for this. I'm hoping and trying hard to pass my math 20p course if not, I have time to do it again but that's not the point. If that does happen I may won't get a part time bursary for the next course. I just wish my work was more co-operative and reasonable, I'm actually half convinced that the managers are spiteful that I wont be pissing away my life in retail but rather doing something with more impact and rewarding for my fellow man and the community, SO LET'S BEGRUDGE HIS FUTURE AND HIS EFFORTS, curse their collective hides. If they're unwilling to to bend or even follow their own rules and the company's, I'm going to have to find employment elsewhere, which is an incredibly daunting task looking the way I do. To be more specific about that, most employers see me as an Aboriginal and the stereotypes that commonly accompany them, so why the hell would they hire me, no matter how good my papers look, no matter how confident I appear, no matter how well dressed I am, no matter how properly I articulate what I wish to convey, all they want to see is a lazy, stupid, intoxicated stereotype so they can unjustly feel superior to someone. I hate needing these people. I don't even look Native to those that have actually met one.
I don't want to fail now, alone I could accept this but having another persons life following along side your own has a different set of risks.

I'm sure there's more to say but back to school work.

SURVEY

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Well I guess I give the internet another shot...damn it.
Cop out post, the internets may not think we're compatable Hun, infact it says to avoid you XD but we work anyway.

Your result for The Heart Test...

Healer's Heart

You are 80% Independent, 30% Idealistic, 50% Intimate, and 60% Indulgent!

Take The Heart Test at HelloQuizzy

Well I got a sixty five percent on my midterm, that's a fail for me personally, I could have had a ninety plus percent on it but I failed to allocate my time properly with the multiple choice section...stupid me is stupid. Speaking of stupid me I kept fucking up whether to use Cosine or Tangent, both of which use the hypotenuse as a denominator so I keep fucking up whether to use opposite or adjacent, so naturally I associate them as either or and mix them up. When I got to northgate I went to Wendy's to get a burger and fries because I was craving a burger and fries. While I was waiting to decide what I wanted I was leaning on the fat ass cow people bar thinger until I decided on what I wanted and because I was so groggy that It didn't register that what I was leaning on didn't disappear when I lifted off it to move and proceeded to try and walk through it and I kneed it at full speed! there was only two people in there and no one noticed, my ego was grateful. Also on the Bus rid to school gave me the feeling of wanting to throw up, stupid female drive, gas, break, gas, break, gas, break, EVER HEARD OF CONSISTENT ACCELERATION!? but I got to the stop and proceed to cross the street and I always notice that the cross walk CLEARLY labeled "push for audio only" is always being pushed, DOES NO ONE READ SIGNS!? Yes you stupid peon it will change quicker now that you've hit it, I also heard the more you push it the faster it will change.
What ever happened to using your arm to open a door, have we become so complacent with technology that we've forgotten that doors wont open automatically no matter how much we glare or smile at it. That's another thing, there's four elevators in the school's lobby and when two come down why the fuck does everyone try to cram into one, mean while the disabled girl in the power chair needs to get to class all the same as us has to wait yet again for another on to come down to pick all your lazy fat asses up a story or two. I walk past them like I always do and go up four flights, not usually bad, but this time however I have a soar throat, so I'm sent into a coughing fit, coupled with the queasiness in my stomach I wanted to puke, I didn't though.

You made me sick Hun :( with me wiping your nose and you breathing heavily on me, I caught something :/ (Don't worry I don't hate you) You're cute when you're artarded

Anyway I feel like I need some rest, Goodnightmornoon.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship? RELATIONSHIP OF SRS BZNS/CRUISE CONTROL


02) What was your dream growing up? Comfortable solitude.


03) What talent do you wish you had? I wish I could write.


04) If I bought you a drink what would it be? I would want a JD in coke double on the rocks, and I would convince you to drink me under that table if you're buying

05) Favorite vegetable? *rolls eyes*...carrots


06) What was the last book you read? BATMAN:WHITE EYES


07) What zodiac sign are you? Virgo the Virgin/Maiden


08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? My ear is pierced I would like my eyebrow pierced, and various tattoos if my skin ever clears T_T


09) Worst Habit? ah hell I can't choose, looking at the details missing the big picture?


10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? chances are IM walking and I don't want to talk to you T_T so no


11) What is your favorite sport? To watch? Women's volleyball. To play? Tennis.


12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude? I'm a pessimist disguised as an Optimistic.


13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? Grimace at everyone from the corner.


14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? ah hell lots of bad things happened, Knife fight, Spending 40ish days without heat and power, Running out of Dr.Pepper yesterday?


15) Tell me one weird fact about you. I like romantic comedies...SHUT UP


16) Do you have any pets? yes! two I don't have anymore :/


17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? I get paranoid when the doorbell rings, I guess I can thank my mother for that T_T


19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Clowns raping clowns is funny


20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? I'd make my skin clear


21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? Partner in crime!


22) What color eyes do you have? Dull brown cow eyes.


23) Ever been arrested? almost three times


24) Bottle or can soda? CAN *POP*


25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? Buy a bike and take a trip with Amy!


27) What's your favorite place to hang out at? My computer room, shit be happenin yo!


28) Do you believe in ghosts? I believe in personal demons


29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? I like to draw, so long as I don't get distracted.


30) Do you swear a lot? FUCK YEAH, and increasingly so when around idiots.


31) Biggest pet peeve? Stupid people who have no right being stupid XO


32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? Guile :D


33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? I do, going both ways


34) Favourite and least favourite food? COW! and CORN!


35) Do you believe in God? I BELIEVE IN DOG wait,shit.

Well I've been suspended for two weeks, Kind of a mix blessing. I have time to get some things done now however NO moneys, well it'll be pretty tight. :/ I'm fighting this but the retarded thing is it would take up to two months or if the company doesn't want to do anything it can take up to two years in arbitration...I might not even be there that long >_< so long as things go fine with me and the Queen >_> ilu<3 anywoo more on this later.

Goodnightmornoon~

This kinda amused me...

Jesse Patrick Lahey

There are 17 letters in your name.
Those 17 letters total to 70
There are 6 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:Hebrew Male Wealthy. Jehovah exists. The father of King David in the Old Testament.
Famous Bearer: American outlaw Jesse James (1847-82).
English Male Jehovah exists. In the bible Jesse was shepherd-father of King David. Also used for girls.
Biblical Male Gift; oblation; one who is


Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Well I honestly don't believe it but they gave me ALL the RDO's that I wanted I am only working 15 hours this week that's right 15 fucking hours ^_^ FUCK YEAH! I've already worked 8 of them.
I have monday, tuesday, wednesday, friday, and saturday so we can celebrate our second year anniversary hun...if you want to, I'll take you someplace nice. Our merry band of retards probably want to go to animethon maybe we could do both but I would like to have our day. I got triple time for the holiday so I won't actually be missing too much of the money, I shan't find myself starving anytime soon. I don't really know what I'm going to do with myself over the next few days although I'm sure I'll find something to do. I have the english test to write this wednesday, of which I'll grotesquely fuck it up and wind up having to do english again in 20 months. I am growing tired of this
I thought I would have more to write then this but I guess not.

On some other note I upgraded Sasha from awesome friend to work of art I added the one picture to Deviant Art because pretty Sashy is pretty

DUHN NUN NUN NAAAAA

Nayasha by ~chibiprof on deviantART

Time for some peanut butter sandwiches~ goodnightmornoon

Got another chibi out I hope I find a style that works eventually, less rough more sharp but I guess this works for now...next up amy

chibisashy by ~chibiprof on deviantART

Well I got side tracked from my original project and drew a chibi of me...and I kinda like it O.o kinda want to draw chibis of the peeps now >.> <.< >.>
and I dids it entirely with my tablet! :O


Chibiprof by ~chibiprof on deviantART

Other then general annoyances as of late not much else to report...I really need more OL friends......

Went and finalized my Taxes today $$$ YAY then went to hang out with Sash fun times ^_^ Speed racer was a RETINA FRYING EXTRRRRRAVAGANZA

The wachowski brothers KNOW anime v_v Too bad we had almost every possible annoying fuck inside the theater ten year old bastard kids behind us(I wanted to ring their necks) some stupid fuck brought his 1 year old in (I wanted to throw that thing at the screen). The stop off to Tony romas was so so, well the food was so so the company was awesome(props to sash) I havent had an intelligent comfortable conversation with someone in a long while, everyone seems so busy with other things :/ We had a nice long walk back talking about a play she read and I was intrigued so she lent it to me(Ill add this one to the list) and The Homecoming which sounds interesting too.
After I walked Sasha back she lent me the books, I decided to take a walk my self to clear my head a little. I got stopped by some cops on my way through Griesbach
Cop:sternly"Hey there, where you off too?"
Me:-blinded by the stupid Hoodlight-snappy "off to get my mail"
Cop:-looking at me like Im on crack- "this time at night......very well get on your way"

Then I went to pick up the mail(fuck there was a lot of mail and there was also money for me ^_^) and then I realized I havent seen my good friend Jack Daniel, so I walked to the Rosslyn liquor store, upon crossing ninty-seventh street I was repeatedly called faggot by a handful of douchébags in the turning lane and didnt let up until they were out of earshot. It didn't bother me but I did think that they were going to throw something at me. I got ID'd when I walked in the Rosslyn and the guy jokingly said that I should update my ID because I look so different(which amused me because the Moneymart lady said the same thing) on my way out I saw a bus loaded with people all sing loudly squak the lyrics to Queens - Bohemian rhapsody. I finished the walk back to Ted's and reaquanted with my old friend and finished setting up my computer, It's sooo spiffy *_* It's sooooo nice to have all my music back *hugs music*

Now to finish my School work and if time permits play some Metroid Prime ^_^

Goodnightmornoon~


P.S. Metalic kitty rocks <3

A few things are pissing me off

1. My idiot supervisor is constantly trying to pick a fight with me Ive moved on from belittling him with big words he cant quite understand to just plain ignoring him as if he wasnt there. I know its petty but I suppose this is better then what I originally wanted to do. It actually crossed my mind to choke the shit out of him useing pallet plastic wrap then wraping him in it throwing him on a truck with some food and water and shipping him to either calgary or vancouver, or a molotov cocktail to the inside of his car. Either way he can go choke on a crooked dick.

2. Why the fucking hell do managers get into a panic when THEIR bosses come around " no Im not going to bend over backwards just so it looks like you have been doing what you SHOULD be doing, I'll keep doing what Im supposed to be doing because thats what I get payed to do, if you dont like it maybe you should have given more thought about solving problems earlier. ~Why do stupid people become managers, because they make crappy employees.

3. It looks like it'll be about August before our contract is settled, Im seriously considering finding another night shift job somewhere else unless things somehow magically restore themselves.

4. I want more time ;_;

5. I should probably get ready for school now

in other news


Backround suggestions and other helpful hints on this picture please and thanks ^_~

Well I've had a productive week stupid work ¬_¬ I missed two days but I get a payed day off and I work the holiday which will give me triple time so I guess that evens it out. Spent yesterday afternoon with Krista. We went to The Old Speghetti Factory, had some Epic cheese cake. She helped me with my homework and in turn I read her research papers, fascinating stuff. We went to the Bay to look at make up shit was hella expensive so we went to Shoppers better prices for mostly the same stuff. Unfortunatly we got a complete douchébag helping us out I wanted to ring his neck in, but we found mostly what we were looking for.(plain red ANYthing is annoying to find) NO I DONT WANT TO SPARKLE! Then we went to Ricky's found her some really cute outfits(Amy and Sash I recommend you go there)
The good news is I got my funding for school here I thought I was going to get a small amount of money 400ish not too bad but not exactly cover one subject I got a total of $1675 I guess you get your $1200 back in one fell swoop. The rest Ill set aside for bus passes bc I dont think Ill get this much for next year but oh well

Anyways I should really finish my school paper.



P.S. Im Gay for Bill kaulitz

Turned in my personal response today. I must say I was quite proud of it I should get a 75 at least. I wrote my Dear son letter in a rush quite proud of it but turns out it's NOT due today so I'll work on it later. I have 2 days off school so FUCK YEAH, Imma play me a game.
I had a weird time when I went to go print it off, I sat down and the girls across from me stared speaking to me O.o
they stared asking me questions about the damn work, and they even called me smart...this was weird and frightning, but then I thought being the smartest chimp in the cage is no special prize either. The black guy in my class surprise surprise his name is jullian started talking to me, prolly thinks Im his "buddy" now its bad enough I have to share with these people when in groups...And dey stealz da preshious ideaz >.> <.< >.>
but now theyre talking with me and asking me things ._.; DO NOT WANT

as for now I sleep and I leave you in a room with a moose T_T

It's epic, I know, I'm actually posting in this damn thing despite all of two people reading it. You better enjoy it T_T

Life seems to be working out in my favor, but that's not to say I'm letting my guard down...not for a minute.

SUCCESS~
1. My new shift hours provide me with a more substantial amount of money.
2. I'll be attending school shortly.
3. I'm not as dumb as I thought I was.
4. The Quantity of people in my life is decreasing.
5. The Quality of people in my life is increasing.

FAILURE~
1. My new shifts don't allow much time for anyone
2. School scares the shit out of me.
3. I'm afraid I'll fail.
4. Even with the good that is coming to me, I am terrified that I'm going to lose something special.

Life endures...damn it.

Started rereading Fruits Basket. Started a book Amy lent me, Don't worry Sash almost done yours just a few chapters to go. I've watched fifty episodes of Star Trek: Enterprise at work, I've earned a total of $564.66 watching TV on my DS(so far). *made of win and awesome*

I really can't think of anything else to write for now.

~Be Well